"Just because you coudn't"

I came up with an interesting thought yesterday. I thought of the influence of my father and what type of an experience I've been able to have with him over my brief lifetime. I thought about what he is to my family and more specifically what he means to me. Crazy enough I wasn't able to come up with just what it is that links me to him! anybody else have this problem?

"Is this the Picture of a Woman"

Is this the picture of a woman? One who would not lead her life by her own intentions but through the eyes of the father who's gifts are endless. A woman who's walk is right and who's words are both pleasing and wise. Her beauty cannot be marked in her dress but instead by her character. Is there such a woman or will this remain forevermore, just a picture.

"The 80/20 Fabric of a Woman"

Relationships when put in perspective can be viewed like any old game we play. In that just like a game, it has rules. One in particular that I would like to point out. It's called the 80/20 rule. It's pretty easy to understand but it's also the one rule in the dating game we tend to break the most! However high we set our intentions for being good to another our human nature limits us to receiving 80% of what we really need from a significant other. Even when we feel that we gave 120% on any given day, the other only takes hold of the 80 they've grown accustomed to. Because we are human and live for a 100% satisfaction guarantee we often go searching for ways to fill the void. Whether through hobbies, friends or other secret lovers, we can't help but chase after the 20. Our biggest downfall, especially in my generation is that we have become so used to losing out that we are blinded to the very moment when we've won the biggest. In other words we spend so much time in attempt to catch the 20 we eventually lose the 80 we needed and had all along. As for my question to you people ask me all the time why I don't date. I laugh everytime I get the chance to respond because my answer is simple. I in return ask them have you ever cheated on your lover. Nine times out of ten they say yes and with they're response is my truth and my answer. God has made my heart a work in progress. I am not yet ready to say that I am able to receive and respectfully cherish the 80% fabric of a woman I long to have! I highly doubt that the majority of the people I consider friends are either. I watch everyday as most people I've known over the years not only despise the 80 but would at times rather spend their lives putting their own 20% here and there to make a personal remodeled version of 80 or 100. Like I've said before when will one, ever be good enough for the other!

There Is Such A thing!

Most people would be the first to say that we should never intend on living our lives for others but instead for ourselves. Many would agree that life is a personal journey, where when everything is said and done you are the one who at the end of the day who made the difference in the success of how you lived it. However especially in these past few weeks I find myself not believing this to it's full potential. In fact I find that the success of my day lies in who I meet, where I go and even at times how many other lives I was able to better in that present day! I saw someone today. Someone that in my heart and mind I know I am supposed to make a difference in. Someone that I know will make a difference in me. My biggest question is; Is it wrong to pursue the difference when that difference is the motivation for being me. If my professor were to ask me to describe myself I would tell them that at the beginning of everyday I am an empty box. I have plenty of space and nothing to put it in. However when at my best can hold more information and be more useful than most would ever imagine. I see no problem in this analogy other than the fact that an empty box has nothing more to offer than to wait for others to fill it up with the goods they wish to protect for later. Unfortunately a box cannot fill itself meaning it is always waiting for another to poor into it. That's how I feel though, Like I'm a great individual but I only have motivation when I can be of use to another.

"Semester Go Away"

I am soooo ready for school to just be over! Come on christmas! Whats everybody doing for the holidays this year?

"Blogger in Process"

Hang in there with me people my blogger site is a definite work in progress! I just started about a three days ago so I'm trying to familiarize myself with everything on here and how to work stuff. I promise when I get rolling you'll be able to tell though!! Thanks all!!! ; )

Ne-Yo - One In A Million

Comment Love!

So a week ago I joined Blogger which has been a very fun experience and I can't believe I had absolutely no clue there were so many others who love to write as I do! One thing I'm falling short on is comments. I mean, is anyone reading my material or do I just suck? Lets try to reverse this people!

My Name Is Difference

Sometimes I feel like I'm standing on the edge of the world screaming out loud; however I'm making no more noise than the others who are standing with me. I woke up in the morning thinking it was going to be another nice but ordinary day. With everything going my way. I see faces and places and try to fit through the tighter spaces, of what I hold as truth. Just seperate the ryhme from the madness and well, thats me! Socially strickin, with no particular class to belong to or fit in is where I keep my dwelling. Akward to me is balance and alone I build my palace, of peace. Disturbed oh so easily and checking my work you'll find me doing repeatedly. My mistakes are my burden and I find my greatest joy is in undoing the wrongs of those in my past, I may have left hurting! Sadly love has forgotten my name and left me the whole world to blame. But I won't! In its place has formed an idea. Love is patient, love is kind. Hell love is an action; but hang on tight because I have a reaction. In the absence of love there is still difference. It's just an idea but difference is what drives you in every way. Sometimes just to get off your pillow and make a better day than yesterday! If I had to describe myself in just one word. I'd say, "My name is difference".

Finals Week One

It's no doubt that finals and midterms have always managed to end up as one of the toughest parts of the school year. There was a time in my school career where I too was faced with a major academic obstacle. It was time for the biggest final of the year and our teacher had previously announced that our test was going to be an open book one. I felt an extreme sense of relief however, at the last minute our teacher had managed to change their mind and as of that moment text books would no longer be allowed. As one can imagine, the class began to erupt in complaints. You see, the class had no faith in what they had previously reviewed and without the compfort of their text books to guide them, they were no longer confident and afraid. As Christians we also tend to run into these types of obstacles in a different format. We are aliens to our world, following a different path and willing to make a difference to all who are available to lend and ear. However, I have been witness to many of my friends falling to the waste side when they are put in tough positions and finally faced with a test that the world won't allow our common resources for. Though theses types of problems may rise up, there is one person I know who can always be looked to even when the world tries to close the book on you. That person is Jesus Christ and if your willing to dedicate your life to him there is no obstacle to large to hold us down!